It's tough

It's tough to get up and go to work everyday. And not in the regular way. (It's always tough to get out of bed, I think!). I feel like I'm leaving my heart at home. My place is at home with my kids. That's what I feel deep down. There's just no way that is possible right now (or ever?). It just breaks my heart that I can't do what I know it is I'm supposed to be doing..... I should be with my babies.....